We all have trauma, some of us with a capital "T" and some with a lowercase "t". More and more people are turning to the healing arts, which encompasses various practices like art and music therapy, chiropractic, acupuncture, massage, aromatherapy, naturopathy, and tai chi.

I had a time in my life where I was questioning EVERYTHING. I had the "perfect" life… I was a successful business owner, and in a happy marriage with the love of my life. On the outside everything looked great, but on the inside I felt lost on my path – confused, exhausted and sick to my stomach – both figuratively and literally.

Basically, my life just started to fall apart. I found myself chronically ill, and my body just began to turn off. I could no longer function efficiently as I was fighting chronic adrenal fatigue and hormone disruption. I was doing all the right things, but nothing was working. I tried Holistic doctors, acupuncturists, herbs, nutritionists, psychics, energy healers, meditation, and spiritual healing. The works. Through this long and difficult experience, I was guided to dig deep inside of myself, and find my answers. When I did, I was given a gift that helped me to get my life back on track.

I had unresolved trauma that needed to be processed. I had been sexually and emotionally abused during my childhood. I also endured relentless emotional narcissistic abuse and verbal and physical bullying. These traumatic events led to me developing a nervous system disorder – rheumatoid arthritis – an incurable disease according to Western medicine. I also developed obsessive-compulsive disorder OCD and Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I endured all the common symptoms of trauma including high levels of anxiety and stress and being in a constant state of fight, flight or freeze. My holistic approach to healing led me to scientific evidence showing that humans are comprised of an energetic system integrated with the body, emotions, and spirit. Epigenetics and Quantum physics revealed that my thoughts and beliefs directly influenced my gene expression and life experiences. My subconscious programming was running the show and full of disempowering and self-sabotaging beliefs. I have always refused to operate from a victim mentality as I felt it gave my power away to the abuser. My religious upbringing taught me about my sense of agency. I adapted a growth mindset and a love of learning and a resilience through inner work. When I became fully aware that everything is energy, it was clear that my thought energy could control my physical body energy. I learned methods to tap into my subconscious mind and heal some of the dormant pathways that helped facilitate the opening of my heart. I was able to process unconscious feelings and emotions that had been sabotaging my consciousness.

I combined Healing art therapies, Ayurvedic medicine and Traditional Chinese medicine along with a healthier diet and exercise. These were the holistic tools I used to restore balance to my body, mind and spirit. I was able to improve my immune system, the anxiety, the stress, heal emotions and my chronic disease disappeared! Stress is the ultimate cause of disease. My body was in constant stress and my autonomic nervous system got out of balance. For our bodies to heal it has to be in a healing state and not with a dysregulated nervous system.

In my own intentional healing journey, I've discovered that my pain was not only physical but deeply emotional and psychological. I dove deep into teachings, techniques, and different healing worlds in search of understanding. This led me to vibrational medicine such as sound therapy, energy clearing and aromatherapy and their ability to connect and heal. I worked on detoxing physically, mentally and spiritually, which allowed me to rejuvenate everything in my life.

I became so empowered by this knowledge, that I learned how to do the same for other. Since then, I've created a wonderful life and an amazing business helping people just like you to have lasting transformation. It can be painful when you are out of alignment with your soul mission, and what you came here to accomplish. You can change your life if you change your nervous system from operating from sympathetic to parasympathetic mode.

Some of the instruments I prefer to work with are; Quartz Crystal and Himalayan Singing Bowls, Kenari Chimes, Tibetan Tingsha Cymbals, Bamboo Wind Chimes, Kalimba and the Ocean Drum. I prefer gentle percussions, soothing sounds to avoid triggering misophonia and PTSD for those who have difficulty in tolerance and volume of sounds such as myself.

My prayer for you is for you to live an authentic, healthy, purposeful and happy life with the self-awareness to be able to express your truth appropriately from a place of honesty, respect and love for yourself and others. It would be an honor if my offerings could aid in your personal spiritual and health-related goals accessing deeper levels of healing. I believe sound and energy therapy can lead to mental calm, emotional release, clear out inner energy blockages and foster deep personal wellness and expansion of consciousness.

Be Kind to Your Mind!
…..With love, Carrie Portillo

Certified Practitioner of Sound and Vibrational Therapy